ABOUT ME

A body born in Bulgaria, but a soul that comes from and belongs to the Universe. This would be the best way to describe myself at this point of time when I am still searching for who am I and why am I here.

I have been through a lot of changes in the last one year (probably many of you can relate), not only because of this 2020 worldwide madness that is going on around, but also because I have started to clean up my closet. Or with other words, my awakening has been keeping my mind busy for many months now, trying to figure out what has happened to me from the time I was born until now: 

• how I cope with my stolen childhood - constantly leaving-and-coming-back father and, what in the end I came to realize to be, an abusive mother who was just trying to deal with her own fears and pain (do not get me wrong she was also the most loving parent my soul could choose);

• how I handle/handled my mom's death;

• where do I really belong since I did not feel happy anywhere I lived (same thing about my job); 

• why doctors told me I was fine when obviously something in me hurt till death and how I dealth with depression, distress and panic attacs (or maybe I am still working on them, I do not know); 

• how did my healing process start and how it keeps going etc.

​

Hi! My name is Ivanka, but my friends call me Vania (yes, I know that in Russia it is a name for a boy, but no, I am a girl and define myself as one ;) ). I will take you through the journey I have been having fun with in this life with all its "beauties" I mentioned above and more. 

Why do I start with this blog? No, it is not because I like to complain (even though I do). I believe there are many lost souls in pain out there who either just want to know that they are not alone in this "massacre" or they try to figure out how to start the "cleaning". So this one is for you, brothers and sisters!

Warning: I have freaky sense of humor and I love sarcasm. If you are not able to handle it, help yourself out... :)

If you do manage to go through my posts without being offended or judgy - congrats, you have learned two things: 1. everyone is different and deserves to be understood and 2. not to take life that seriously.

Also I do speak Bulgarian, so if you want to contact me, you can do it in either of the two languages.

Lastly, I do like to write long posts (in case you have not noticed). 

​

P.S. Please do not be judgmental of my English. I know it is not perfect, but as Sofia Vergara says: "you try to speak in a foreign language".

Enough said. Enjoy! :)

​

Thank you!

Peace, Love & Light